On โDawsonโs Creek,โ James Van Der Beek taught millennials how to cry
When โDawsonโs Creekโ premiered on Jan. 20, 1998, I was 11 years old. I had never been in a love triangle or gotten drunk at a house party. Yet, like so many other millennials, I religiously set the VHS player to record โDawsonโs Creekโ every week on the WB.
My parents didnโt approve of their impressionable child devouring the semi-debaucherous teen melodrama, so I labeled the VHS tapes โThe Brady Bunch,โ then routinely snuck out of bed late at night to quietly watch Dawson, Joey, Pacey and Jen navigate their hormonal angst via unbelievably erudite dialogue.
On Wednesday, โDawsonโs Creekโ star James Van Der Beek died at 48 after being diagnosed with colorectal cancer. He left behind six kids, a wife and decades of work across film and television.
But for many millennials, he will always be Dawson Leery.
Van Der Beekโs health was already in decline when I profiled โDawsonโs Creekโ creator Kevin Williamson for The Times last year. Still, the actor kindly agreed to answer questions for the piece via email. His commentary went beyond what was expected, graciously detailing his time on the show and praising his co-stars and collaborators.
In the โDawsonโsโ audition room, for example, Van Der Beek said his soon-to-be co-star Joshua Jackson โstood out because while other actors nervously went over their sides (myself included), he had the energy of a guy who was ready for a prize fight. I remember thinking, โTHAT GUY is really interesting. If they cast him as Pacey, this is going to be really good.โโ
James Van Der Beek, left, and Joshua Jackson in โDawsonโs Creek,โ which would launch them to stardom.
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Van Der Beek likewise effused that, as a showrunner, Williamson โfelt like a friend who was excited to go make a movie in his backyard. Even the way he โpitchedโ storylines โ it was never a pitch. It was a campfire story about people he cared about that heโd unfold in such a simple, compelling way that you couldnโt help but care about them too.โ
Millennial viewers did care. A lot.
โDawsonโs Creek,โ a simple drama about four friends growing up in a small, coastal town, quickly became a defining touchstone of Y2K culture, a major hit for the WB network โ the series finale drew more than 7 million viewers โ and a star-making machine for its four leads: Van Der Beek, Jackson, Katie Holmes and Michelle Williams.
The floppy-haired, often flannel-clad Van Der Beek wasnโt the showโs breakout heartthrob. (That honorific belonged to Jackson, who played Pacey, Dawsonโs charming best friend and Joeyโs end-game paramour.)
But as the title character and a partial avatar for Williamson โ who had similarly spent his own teen years dreamily pining and aspiring to be a filmmaker โ Dawson was the boy-next-door pillar around which the show orbited.
Yes, Dawson was whiny and moody and extremely self-centered, but so are a lot of teenagers. Through Van Der Beekโs wistful performance, viewers were given a window through which to grapple with betrayal, death, heartbreak and a litany of bad decisions.
For better or worse, Dawson served as an emotional, often cautionary, proxy for millennialsโ own coming-of-age messiness.
In the years since the series ended in 2003, Dawson has largely been reduced to the โDawson cryingโ meme: a Season 3 screenshot of Van Der Beek, face contorted in pain and on the verge of crying messy, heaving tears as Dawson tells Joey she should choose Pacey over him.
The emotional relationship between Joey and Dawson was core to the series.
(Fred Norris/The WB)
Van Der Beek later revealed that the tears werenโt scripted. So attuned had he become to his characterโs sensitivity by that point that the emotions flowed naturally.
โI think at the heart of [Williamsonโs] projects are characters that he himself cares about deeply โ flaws and all,โ Van Der Beek said in his email last year. โTheyโre authentic to their background, sincere according to their world viewโฆ and vulnerable.โ
Van Der Beek was vulnerable, too. As his cancer progressed, he was open with fans about his health struggles and the early warning signs. He appeared via video at a โDawsonโs Creekโ reunion event in New York City last September, the proceeds of which raised money for cancer awareness.
In Van Der Beekโs death, there is no real-world instrumental score or innate montage of his best moments to soften the blow, as would have happened with a character on โDawsonโs Creekโ (though the internet will surely be awash in such fan-made edits).
But through his work on โDawsonโs,โ a generation can take comfort in a starry-eyed boy on a dock in Capeside who once invited us into his messy, emotional world.